I’m not so great at handling anger. Typically I internalize it. My work place has, once again, made me very angry and I’m attempting to channel my anger into something productive, like job searching.
In order to gain independence, and to move my career in the direction I’d like it go, I need to obtain a job that actually pays a living wage. Honestly, everyone experiences work shit to some degree but the expression “I don’t get paid for this shit” really applies here.
My best chance at success it seems is to find a job that requires a bachelor’s degree. Yes, my degree in Sociology doesn’t help me much salary-wise (my granddad liked to remind me while in college that I picked the lowest-paying major), however it still helps a little. So, I decided to obtain my college transcripts.
This was no small feat. I had requested them many years ago and it was a piece of cake. I mailed in my request, wrote a check, and I received my transcripts a week later. Unfortunately, I lost my copy in all the subsequent moves. This go around I tried requesting my transcripts again, but I was required to request it through an online portal using my student ID and email address on file. As this had not been used in over a decade I wasn’t quite sure how to go about it.
It was the same process for changing my mailing address for receiving the alumni publication. Because I had moved a dozen times (or more?) since college I never received any publications from the school previously, but somehow a few years ago my in-laws started receiving them at their address (even without the name match). I’ve uncomfortable laughed every time they told me they had received another newsletter. Laughed uncomfortably because this was procrastination to the extreme.
Well, apparently now I’m motivated enough. Honestly, it wasn’t that hard. Well, it took a lot of finagling with my smart phone and 10 emails to accomplish but it only took a couple hours. I got my transcripts AND I changed my mailing address on the student account. Oh, and I got to see a picture of myself from freshman year.
I look exactly the same! Well, not exactly. But close enough, considering it’s been 20 years. My son disagrees. He recognized the picture as me but said I barely look like my picture. I was afraid to ask him why. Fortunately, I look way less doofus-y now. Waaay less. I look fatter and older, but more cool. Or maybe I’m just telling myself and am in denial. Sometimes I’ll look at myself and be like “that isn’t me.” Though, I’ve always felt that way.
My brain got distracted with positive self-image of myself from my halloween party last week. I looked amazing. I really rocked the glittery false lashes and dark look. I actually thought to myself in that moment that I have an attractive face. I suppose with enough makeup anything is possible (oh no, negative self-image is back).
So, back to the transcripts. It was quite striking to see how many courses I actually completed and passed. My head tilted to the side, wondering “How did I do that?” With how I was feeling, how the hell did I do that? I know how badly and how often I was depressed. There was one semester I barely passed and another I had to totally withdraw (my last semester) because I was suicidal. I only graduated a semester later than anticipated and I did so even though I was still recovering. How the hell did I do that?
So,yes, there were 11 courses I took where I got a C or lower. But there were more courses where I got an A or a B. So I’m going to list them here as a pat on my back. You done good, Quix. You did this despite how awful you were feeling.
English Composition I
Western Civilization I
Elementary Spanish II
Aerobic Dancing (I mean, yeah…)
Social Psychology (Psychology focused)
Social Stratification (class where I received the highest score)
Sociology of Social Psychology (Yes, this is somehow different from ‘Social Psychology’)
Intro to Computer Science
English Composition II
Western Civilization II
Human Nutrition (it’s people! he he)
American National Government (maybe our President should take this one)
Personality Theory (Yeah, I can get obsessive about this one sometimes. MBTI?)
World Religions (Maybe if I would have gotten a ‘A’ things would be different)
Modern Sociological Thought
Sex Roles in Modern Society
Juvenile Delinquency (Probably the most interesting class out of all of these)
Sociology of Drug Abuse (second most interesting)
(Notice there are no ‘hard’ science courses on my A or B list. Yes, I suck at science. But at least I got an ‘A’ in Critical Thinking!)
Now, it’s time for me to get the best-paying job that a Sociology degree can get me (Good luck with that, Quix)