Help! I can’t finish my blog posts. I’m great at coming up with topics. I come up with several topics a day but rarely write them down because when I start to write them down I can’t focus my thoughts into words. If I’ve been thinking a lot about a topic then I eventually do get to my phone or laptop and start drafting a post. I’ve got 50 of those in draft right now, with 15 pretty-well fleshed out:
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Bossypants by Tina Fey
If you are an atheist, a materialist, a pantheist, or a naturalist, try to answer the following 11 questions
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The problem is that my mind will split into more options and can’t seem to come to any particular conclusion or coherent message. If I do end up having a specific focus I think What’s the point of writing this anyway?
And that, I think, is the crux. I love brainstorming and have a million ideas and want others to read my thoughts, however, I have no enduring motivation. For what reason should I take the effort to focus and decide what is it I’m trying to say?
I have this voice running around in my head when I try to write that says, You are being self-centered and what are you contributing to the world, anyway? I have an other-loathing as well as a self-loathing for the self-centeredness of social media. I’m just so damn sick of it and I think If you have nothing interesting to say just be quiet.
Here’s what will happen: I will have a thought and then my mind will go to an alternate perspective and contradict the thought.
Is the fact my brain doesn’t work in a linear fashion a curse (not that I believe in curses)? Is it a curse that cognitively it jumps around it doesn’t settle down? Does this have anything to do with my mental illness? Or is it just a personality thing? Must the purpose of my writing even have a conclusion? But of course, I want what I write to be readable, because what’s the point in writing in a public forum if it’s not?
Perhaps I should work with what I’ve got going on in my noggin. Outlines are never going to help because too much structure drains the life outta me. C’mon, Quix, you are creative enough to come up with a solution.
I wonder if perhaps I should start a bit of fiction to my writing. Like, if the conflicting thoughts I have are characters interacting? Maybe they can make statements and ask questions and don’t have to come to any conclusions?
Quixie: What do you think?
Audience: Don’t ask us. Just try it and see how it goes!
But, really, what do you think?