Ugh, fixing your life is hard


I relate to this SO much.

Great news: I’ve had a very productive day. It’s not over yet and I’m pooped. It’s exhausting trying to create structure for yourself and your children. It’s only day one. And now I’ve retreated to my room and told everyone I need alone time. It takes me a long time to recover from doing normal peopling stuff.

On the plus side I’m looking forward to doing a 2 hour (yes TWO hours!) float in the sensory deprivation pod on Saturday and also going shopping at my favorite clothing store with the gift card my mom bought me.

And on Monday I’m going to see my therapist. It’ll have been 3 weeks and here will be a ton to talk about. Then in a week my kids go back to school (oh, I wish it were sooner! Yes, already though I’ve only been with them one day).

And there are three separate acquaintances that have agreed to have lunch or coffee with me after the holidays. I hope at least one of them won’t cancel. Ha- I’m just being pessimistic. Then the week after that I start going to Freethinker & Humanist group on Tuesday so I’m hoping that will turn out well.

Ack, but right now I’m SO pooped! I feel like I have to do everything differently and that’s exhausting.

There is often a song running through my head. This is today’s song. It often makes me feel better slightly better:

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About Quixie

Hi! I go by "Quixie." Quixie is a shortened version of "quixotic," which means: "exceedingly idealistic; unrealistic and impractical." It's how I described my evangelical Christian faith when I started blogging 7 years ago. Now I'm an agnostic atheist who is trying to find a balance between idealism and reality. I write about my mental health journey with bipolar disorder, my loss of faith (deconversion), parenting teens, reading, exercise/health, work-life, and my marriage separation/divorce.