At Ease

My husband and I mutually decided that we are not going back to our family therapist and will be finding another therapist. He agrees she was borderline abusive. We agreed on something – progress!

In other news, I’m feeling really bored. I don’t feel any sense of intensity at the moment, which feels a little bit like a letdown as intensity tends to be motivating. I’m looking around at my house, which is a mess, and my body, which is a mess, (I’ve gained weight from my new med and I’m having digestive issues) and going UGH, I don’t want to deal with this stuff.

Such is life. It’s a good thing I’m bored.

Next week I’m having lunch with a former coworker/acquaintance. I’m also supposed to be hearing back from my new vocational rehab counselor. I’m going to start walking everyday again and I’m going to stop my newly-formed habit of eating McDonalds breakfast every morning (which would only increase my weight gain and tummy issues). And, of course, look for work.

I feel sad right now and bored, but not unsettled. That’s a good thing.

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About Quixie

Hi! I go by "Quixie." Quixie is a shortened version of "quixotic," which means: "exceedingly idealistic; unrealistic and impractical." It's how I described my evangelical Christian faith when I started blogging 7 years ago. Now I'm an agnostic atheist who is trying to find a balance between idealism and reality. I write about my mental health journey with bipolar disorder, my loss of faith (deconversion), parenting teens, reading, exercise/health, work-life, and my marriage separation/divorce.