Midday – Sunday

I woke up just before 11 this morning! I checked my ketones and the strip says I have a large amount of ketones in my urine, which means I’m in ketosis. (This is the last time I’m going to mention this, because I’m sure no one wants to hear about what’s going on in my urine).

I’m feeling a little “off” today. My stomach hurts a little and I feel like I’ve had a glass of wine (nope I haven’t been drinking – I poured that cheapo moscato down the drain). These symptoms should go away as my body gets used to it. And I guess I’ve also got a lot on my mind with family stuff.

Today so far I’ve been grocery shopping and I’ve prepped/cooked meals for the week. This seems like something most “normal” people would be doing anyway, but you have to understand the severity of my eating habits, which was to be as lazy as possible and included shoving my face with fast food and junk food. So this is quite the change. Even if I somehow “mess up” on this diet it is significantly healthier than what I was doing before.

Facebook just posted a “memory” of a pic of me that was taken 6 years ago when I was preparing to run a 5k race. I was 30 lbs (~14 kilos) lighter. Oh, old self, you thought you were so out of shape. Really. Sigh.

Other than diet and health stuff, my daughter’s therapist has been concerned enough about my daughter that she wants her to be seen very soon by a child psychiatrist. The only one who sees children in town is booked the next couple of months. The only alternative is to take her to a pediatric mental health hospital.

Which her dad and I will not do if she’s not in immediate danger. It’s really hard being a parent as it is (which I feel ill equipped for even though I’ve been doing this for over 14 years), and then add on top of that mental health issues. Making these decisions is rough.

We very keenly observed my daughter’s behavior these past couple days and just a little bit more attention from us seemed make a huge difference. I realized we’ve been approaching her from a very anxious position and the last couple days as I’ve been more laid-back she has come out of herself and been her “normal” self.

I’m going to have to give her therapist an update, which I’m not looking forward to doing, however such is a life of being a parent with a child with mental illness.

Other than that, what’s on my mind is my 40th birthday that is coming up in a few weeks. I’ve got some plans for what I’d like to write about that week. It’s going to be this whole big thing, friends. I see it as a major milestone and have thoughts about it that I’d like to share. I don’t see a lot voices out there from others about their 40th.

I hope your Sunday is going/went well and you are being as lazy as possible. Sunday is a day of rest, after all, right? 😉


2 thoughts on “Midday – Sunday

  1. I planned “My Big Fat Greek 40th Birthday Party” (the movie was popular. It cost me a fortune and was one of the most disappointing experiences of my life. But my guests LOVED it!!

    I hope your 40th is fantastic for YOU!!

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About Quixie

Hi! I go by "Quixie." Quixie is a shortened version of "quixotic," which means: "exceedingly idealistic; unrealistic and impractical." It's how I described my evangelical Christian faith when I started blogging 5 years ago. Now I'm an agnostic atheist who is trying to find a balance between idealism and reality. I write primarily about my mental health journey (I have bipolar disorder), and I also discuss my deconversion, mindfulness, exercise, music, reading, and other cultural topics.