I can’t write this on my laptop because my cat keeps licking my hand when I do and it’s really irritating my skin. Ah, cat parent life! I just ate tuna so that could explain why. Anyway, I’m writing this on my phone so I’ll try to keep this brief.
I had an unsettling dream. My friend (who I was vulnerable with yesterday) in my dream basically told me I was self-centered and I didn’t really have any major things to be upset over. And this made me wander off, I was entering a dissociative and suicidal state. This happened in the earlier part of my dream with a different person.
Also, I keep having dreams that I’m lost. And I find I’m in a different state in the middle of nowhere, with no idea how I got there. Or, I find myself accidentally entering a body of water that floods and goes over my head.
I think these dreams mean I am overwhelmed, lost, and don’t trust myself. I feel tired. I feel like I’ve been trying too hard but at the same time I’m lazy with the day-to-day. I have no idea how to make sense of this contradiction.