30 Days & 30 Songs: Day 8

A song that reminds you of your first love or a song about drugs and alcohol.

How about both? Oh boyyy, Quix, this is going to be good!

I chose the below song because it’s about “staying high” to get over heartbreak. Well, this song perfectly encapsulates the feeling during one of my mixed (depressive/manic) episodes when the love of my life rejected me. I didn’t get “high” from drugs, but this is what that felt like to me with the mix of heartbreak and a bipolar episode.

Fortunately, I haven’t experienced this in a lonnnggg time. I’ve had heartache, but fortunately, my illness is well-controlled.

2 thoughts on “30 Days & 30 Songs: Day 8

  1. Medicate – Flaw
    “I’ve got to medicate myself
    It’s been the only thing that’s helped
    Must cover up what I have felt
    It seems the only way”
    Those words pretty much described my life for awhile, although my pain was physical, not mental/emotional.


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About Quixie

Hi! I go by "Quixie." Quixie is a shortened version of "quixotic," which means: "exceedingly idealistic; unrealistic and impractical." It's how I described my evangelical Christian faith when I started blogging 7 years ago. Now I'm an agnostic atheist who is trying to find a balance between idealism and reality. I write about my mental health journey with bipolar disorder, my loss of faith (deconversion), parenting teens, reading, exercise/health, work-life, and my marriage separation/divorce.