28 days til divorce hearing: anti-social

I’ve only got 10 minutes to type this up before my lunch break is over, so I’ll be quick (no time to edit). I mean, I could write more later tonight but I’m feeling lazy.

I ended up napping again last night and then sleeping from 1am-to 8am, like normal. I’ve noticed that I’ve been having unsettling dreams when I wake up. I was so tired when I woke up this morning I considered calling out, especially knowing today would be overwhelming with work. Gotta love avoidance.

But then I remembered that we were short-staffed and I wouldn’t be able to sleep – if I called out I’d feel guilty. Plus, I’d use up PTO I’d need to visit friends and family.

I’ve not done anything social in a whole week. This next week I think every day I’ve got an event where I have to be out of the house and around others. That’s going to drain me. Plus, I start my new schedule at work.

Today is overwhelming, if I don’t get done what I need to get done today I’ll be way behind. But I’m doing the best I can and that’s all I can do.

I gotta go – I might write later. I’m just feeling so…blah, tired, and, yeah I guess, depressed. I’ll see if getting out of the house tomorrow helps me. I’m going to go shopping so I feel more confident in clothes that actually fit.

Hope you have a good rest of your day/evening.

❤ Quixie

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About Quixie

Hi! I go by "Quixie." Quixie is a shortened version of "quixotic," which means: "exceedingly idealistic; unrealistic and impractical." It's how I described my evangelical Christian faith when I started blogging 7 years ago. Now I'm an agnostic atheist who is trying to find a balance between idealism and reality. I write about my mental health journey with bipolar disorder, my loss of faith (deconversion), parenting teens, reading, exercise/health, work-life, and my marriage separation/divorce.