I’m feeling a bit low

I’ve got a stress headache. My work is stressful but normally I can put that aside. The problem is my non-work hours are also stressful.

My son just started high school. My daughter just dropped out but did go to orientation for the high school program at the local community college. But neither of them are happy and there are hiccups.

I haven’t lost any weight in 2 weeks. I’ve started lifting weights, so that could be it, but I’m also eating fast food at least once a day, so there’s that. I don’t feel like cooking. Or shopping. So I order Doordash, which is extremely expensive.

Funnily enough, I’m still under my maintenance calories (I’ll eat like 1/2-3/4 of a chicken sandwich, no side, and a diet drink), I fast for breakfast. I still have one meal full of lots of healthy veggies and lean protein. It’s discouraging not to see the weight drop, but I’m not willing to change my diet at the moment. I feel too stressed to change what I’m doing.

I stopped walking. That’s because I overdo it when I’m weight training and I’m sore and just want to rest. I either need to buy lighter weights or go to the gym. I don’t know why I’m so resistant to working out more. Though 2× a week weight training and 2 hours a week roller skating is not that bad. It’s exercise, isn’t it? But still, I feel like it’s not enough, and of course I need to change my diet again.

But – yeah – stuff with my kids is stressing me out. It’s nothing horrific but it’s really wearing on me. I hate to say it, but I’ll probably feel better when they are back at their dad’s next week.

I also need to clean my apartment. I made some progress this weekend but I’ve stalled.

I have made some good progress reading. Created a fundraiser for The Trevor Project, which helps prevent suicides in LGBTQIA youth. There is a reading challenge this next month for the fundraiser that I’m a part of.

I need to decide what I want to give priority to. Also, I feel like there is nothing that is lightening my load, floating my boat, as it were. I think if I could experience some happiness it might make the stress bearable.

4 thoughts on “I’m feeling a bit low

  1. You are overwhelmed. I’m in the same boat. You have so much to do that you don’t know where to start. Does that ring true? Try not to be hard on yourself. Don’t feel guilty about wanting the kids to go back with their dad. If you are not feeling your best you can’t be your best parenting. Try to stay away from diet drinks. The fake sugar makes you crave sugar more than eating real sugar does. You can Google that. I wish you great luck. Take care.🍀🙏🏻❤️‍🩹

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  2. I know that frustrated feeling. Everything is just…JUST. Breathe and know that tomorrow is a new day. I struggle with eating out too but it’s gotten a lot easier since I got implants 😄 Only soft foods since April!

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  3. Stress needs to be lowered, yeah. The thing is, walking adequately (20-30 mins) can help with stress and depression. And as skyology says, the diet drinks don’t help lose weight; they don’t resolve cravings. Sucralose can mess with your gut and promote brain fog, and some of it even turns into sugar, so not much point but a product. It can be harder to start a plan, but easier once you get into it.

    Take good care.

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  4. I feel ya. I’m at a different stage in life but also working on my health in the middle of stress. Overwhelm is a big thing to deal with but it sounds life you are dealing with it well and with some wisdom.

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About Quixie

Hi! I go by "Quixie." Quixie is a shortened version of "quixotic," which means: "exceedingly idealistic; unrealistic and impractical." It's how I described my evangelical Christian faith when I started blogging 7 years ago. Now I'm an agnostic atheist who is trying to find a balance between idealism and reality. I write about my mental health journey with bipolar disorder, my loss of faith (deconversion), parenting teens, reading, exercise/health, work-life, and my marriage separation/divorce.