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I hope you are having/have had a good Thanksgiving, if you celebrate such a thing. While there are things I’m grateful for (I keep a gratitude journal) right now I’m just feeling lonely.

I’ve been feeling too down to come up with a Thanksgiving tradition, just me and the kids, post-divorce. So my kids went to their grandparents’ (my ex’s parents) and I joined them after work (yes, I had to work today, ugh). I got a moment of joy seeing my former in-laws, as it had been months, but the majority of the hour I spent there was joyless.

I should mention I have no family nearby to celebrate Thanksgiving with outside my kids.

God, I feel like I failed my kids by not doing something special. They were staying with me this week.

I just feel … low. And lonely. I feel lonely a lot. It’s a sad, pathetic feeling. I wonder if this is normal. I guess that’s irrelevant. What’s relevant is that I’m unhappy. I suppose I should find a way to fix that.